What a loving God I serve.
He is so patient and understanding, even when I fail Him.
And, the greatest thing of all is, He never gave up on me.

He stayed with me, even when I walked away from him, which I did several times before finally returning to where I belong.
I first met Jesus in 1971, in a little church in Kansas. Of course, being a young, single mom I soon fell to the pressures of the "world". I had to take my life and that of my childrens into my own hands...after all, who knew what was best for us better than I did? As the song so aptly puts it, "I am Woman, I am invincible."
So much for the way of the world! I fell flat on my face!

After 20 years, 2 failed relationships, and another child, He caught my attention again. This time it was for keeps.
Now, I'm not saying it has all been smooth sailing on my part, but then, with this great thing I have called "free will" It has been no picnic on His part either. I seem to have to chalange Him every once in a while.

Lucky for me, His love is unconditional.

In the year 2000 when my "God Sent" marriage fell apart I got quite angry.
I just couldn't understand why God would take my husband away when He had sent him in the first place. How could he turn His back on me like that?
It took an injury at work to get me to realize that It wasn't Him, but the fact that my husband also had "free will", that ended my marriage.
Thanks to a wonderful friends, and God's love, I was able to get over my anger. My faith has grown so strong. I am living my life now, solely in God's hands.

I have learned some very hard lessons in this past year. Changed my life style completely, and watched my faith grow to unbelievable lengths.
I had back surgery in January of 2002. I had hopes of returning to my job as a CNA in a nursing home. But, for some reason The Lord had other plans.
After several tries to return to work, each one ending in greater pain, I finally "gave in".
I had to just finally say, "Ok God, here I am, I can't do anything. Do with me what you will."
At prestnt time I have no job, $161.00 a month income, I am well fed, warm and dry and my utilities are paid. My landlady is unbieleivably wonderful in saying not to worry about the rent, (this is the first month that I have missed, God has always provided it in one way or the other.) One month, when she refinanced the house, she had no mortgage payment, so charged me no rent. I have to tell you tho, she had been trying to refinance for over a year. Funny I came thru when it did isn't it?
Do I feel uncomfortable about the way things are right now? Of course I do, but,
"All things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called acording to His purpose." Romans 8:28

I know He has called me to do His work and "My God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19
I hold His promises to be true.
Every day He shows me that I am going the direction He has chosen. With my being home all of the time I have been so blessed as to see the 2 girls that live next door come to know Jesus. He has some great plans for them. That is already becoming appearent.
The other thing that assures me I am on the right path is Satin's unrest. He has launched some vicious attacks but..
My God wins....read the Book!
With God's grace and the love of friends and support from my agapee group I am succesfully fighting the depression that the devil threw at me. I have found a wonderful doctor that thinks he can get rid of the pain and numbness in my left leg by a simple implant instead of major surgery again including a fussion of my back.
I am also blessed daily to be able to watch the growth of Amy and Desi and see God's hand in the lives of their other family members and friends.
Do I worry? Sometimes. But I refuse to let it get me down. I have my bad days, but I can mostly keep busy with this web site. This is something that God has directed me to and He has given me the talent to be able to do it. He also gives me most of the words.
What will tomorrow bring? I have no idea. The only thing I know for sure is that what ever it is, I can handle it. As it says in my favorite scriptiue.."I can do All things thru Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

Music playing is Jesus, Lover Of My Soul
from MidiCity